Dark Eyes

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Dark Eyes

My new roommate's a scientist, a physics nerd, that's what she's doing in China, watching eclipses. You know there was just a huge lunar eclipse in wintry Capricorn, while the summer sun's in Cancer, don't ask me to explain that. Leave it to the astrologers.

Mentioning astrology to my roommate... let's call her Lemur. I wanted to call her Marmoset but then I looked up Marmoset and really, there's no resemblance. Marmosets have tactile hairs on their hands. And claws instead of nails. And they're only 8 inches long.

lemurfullLemurs are primates from Madagascar who wail.

Lemurs, however, have beautiful long striped tails, make so much noise at the zoo that Ms. Lemur actually mentioned them at my potential-new-roommate interview since the apartment we now share is so close to the zoo we can hear them. Well, she can. My room's on the other side of the apartment. I hear the streetcar turn around to go back downtown.

But mostly Lemurs have beautiful eyes. The irises are light brown and the surrounding fur a rich black, not unlike the mascara Eva Green applies that makes her look like silent screen star Theda Bara, aka the vamp. Vamp is short for vampire and used to mean hottie. Theda's on my mind not just because my grandmother gave her swimming lessons but the San Francisco Silent Film Festival opens tonight.

Theda Bara past her prime in pornography with a plot, 1925.

But I'm having trouble remembering Lemur's eyes since we knew each other less than a week before she whisked herself off to study Chinese eclipses. Her parting words to me were, "Nice to meet you!" before she got into a car with a Chinese guy who had possibly the greatest hairdo I've ever been so close to. Very Iroquois. Not Mohawk. A two-to-three-inch swath of two-inch-long hair, dyed a subdued turquoise, like the patina on copper, tapering to a point on the nape of the neck. I wanted it!

Anyway, she got into a car with a Chinese physicist and his lover, a guy, and I haven't seen her since. So I'm going out on a limb describing her eyes but I'll say they're black...

Russian crowd sways along to "Ochi Chornye," lustily sung by Mireille Mathieu.

Okay, here's what happens when you blog. When I blog, anyway. I think "black eyes," then I think "Ochi Chornye," because Lemur's parents are Russian, and I'm a fanatical collector of cultural fetishes. So I google "Ochi Chornye," read the passionate lyrics, listen to a few versions on youtube, and think, no, her nickname should be Ochi Chornye not Lemur, but by the time I've assembled that sentenceful, I'm back to Lemur because really it's more original and site-specific.

And I'm not in love with her and she didn't break my heart but most importantly, "No sex with roommates," in the words of the woman who did break my heart in such a way I now understand the words to the song.

lunareclipseNASA's map of the visibility of the July 7th eclipse of the full moon.

But I really meant to write a blog about astrology, about having my chart read in dizzying detail by our own Patrice Kamins, and Lemur was only a lead-in because, as a self-described scientist, of course astrology is nonsense to her, gobbledeegook. So when I asked her her sign, she told me but didn't know her rising sign or where her moon was, and she even teaches some class that would disprove the validity of astrology if that were even in question.

When Lemur looks at the moon, she doesn't see what Patrice Kamins sees, or what I see. Reality is so consciousness-specific.

astrochartThe birth chart of this blog, courtesy of Astrolabe.com



Comments [51]

Patrice Kamins's picture

wow, and I just read your

wow, and I just read your final sentence, Ms. Blackwell. Yes! You are a weaver of spells of the highest degree. And because it's all about energy, it's science, gosh darn it!

Erin Blackwell's picture

yeah, i was thinking,

yeah, i was thinking, dreamily, that science also occurs subjectively. you have a hypothesis, you experiment, you observe results, you shift your hypothesis, but the measurements are kinda wiggly, more qualitative than quantifiable.

i'm looking forward to hashing this out incrementally with my roomie on her return from the East.

Patrice Kamins's picture

Oh, and there is the notion

Oh, and there is the notion of facts vs the truth. Oftentimes facts can be manipulated (often?!!) to confirm a certain desired outcome. And there is the truth, that while sometimes hazy on the facts portion, rings true.

Erin Blackwell's picture

that reminds me of the guy

that reminds me of the guy sherlock holmes was based on, i think it's cs peirce, the grandaddy of semiotics, who arrived at conclusions intuitively, then had to backtrack to find the logical steps leading to the lightning flash comprehension. i get so frustrated with scientific experiments that "prove" things obvious to commonsense, take so long, cost so much money, skip so many nuances. at the same time, we neglect science at our peril, since its sbsence opens other grotesque doors to, well, you know...

Patrice Kamins's picture

This is my last comment,

This is my last comment, promise (to myself, my aunt's funeral is tomorrow). Currently, it's about a balance between science and intuition (or Neptune in Aquarius vs. Uranus in Pisces). Once again, us brainiacs, our references only go back a few hundred years. We're are a
product of our upbringing, the good and the bad. And compared to current reality, I am happy to have some nerd
creds. However, the essence of what you write and what I work at has to do with the intuitive flowing mind. Our "masculine" parts are comfortable with didacticism, categorization and order. Yet, our emotional, feminine essence is helplessly drawn to the flowing, voluptuous,potentialed all that is. I guess it could be marketed as a male/female, gay/straight polarity, but it is much richer and the "battle" between science and art is probably more statisfying than any other political agenda. Who's reality will prevail?

On that note, as a snide aside, the top is usually in charge of the bottom. So let science reign. We'll let them think they got it in the bag, but who will have the last laugh?

Erin Blackwell's picture

i think there's a third,

i think there's a third, maybe even a fourth party to the battle. religion and real estate and i guess even derivatives. both science and art veer into the impurities of religion, real estate and derivatives, and that's when they come to blows. greed, hate and delusion forever dragging us down.

Patrice Kamins's picture

Wait, I made a mistake--I

Wait, I made a mistake--I meant to say the bottom is in charge of the top! Sorry to the cultural and spiritual Pisces out there!

Patrice Kamins's picture

Yes, it's very subjective

Yes, it's very subjective because science as we know it in modern terms is probably only about 500 years old, again after the rationalism of Descarte. Astrology as an objective science, is about 5,000 years old. We have to look at cycles in much longer/wider terms, not just in the limited perspective of what is acceptable now. There will be a day in the near future where, as I mentioned to you in your reading,we will be scratching our heads in disbelief that there was ever a time that people were divided on the common issues of gender, sexuality and race. Like a bad/good Star Trek episode, the black/white face. Anyway, would be interested in the play by play with your returning roomie. Count me as a teammate in the battle for ethereal supremacy!

Erin Blackwell's picture

ethereal supremacy? now

ethereal supremacy? now *that's* provocative.

what's your chart placement that gives you the gift of gab, P? other than your sagittarianism.

Patrice Kamins's picture

WEll, that in itself is

WEll, that in itself is enough, it's just the natural fire sign assholianness. Likewise, the Mercury in Sag, supposedly debilitated because it has no limits!

It's always fun to joust and you bring out the best/worst in me!

Have a good evening!

P

Erin Blackwell's picture

well, see, you *do* have

well, see, you *do* have limits!

Julia Watson's picture

This blog has Moon conjunct

This blog has Moon conjunct Jupiter in Aqueerius. That means it's emotionally expansive in a quirky, intellectual kinda way. Ha ha.

Erin Blackwell's picture

yes but those planets are

yes but those planets are squared mars-conjunct-venus in gemini? talkative tough love countering neptune's oceanic embrace? this is kinda fun!

Patrice Kamins's picture

And the Moon is amplifying

And the Moon is amplifying the Jupiter/Chiron/Neptune conjunction of graceful enlightenment. Sorry, I guess I missed where I was supposed to post, in response to Julia's moon comment. Mars and Venus have been travelling together, btw, since April so first it was the idea/inspiration (Aries), then the concretization in Taurus and now, we're ready to talk or write about it (Gemini)--and explore some more!

Erin Blackwell's picture

graceful enlightenment, bring

graceful enlightenment, bring it on!

love it when you educate while you prognosticate

Julia Watson's picture

Yes, but Mars and Venus

Yes, but Mars and Venus getting it on is the height of licentiousness, and in the writerly sign of Gemini no less. I think that means that you were meant to write porn yesterday, Blackwell. It's not too late...

(Yes, this is totally fun!)

Erin Blackwell's picture

hmmm... you know i wanna but

hmmm... you know i wanna but i'm moving my bed and dresser today... maybe later but i'm going to catch some more SILENT MOVIES... if you dont like subtitles what must think about INTERTITLES?

it's *all* porn, really, ain't it? kinda?

Julia Watson's picture

That's true. I find many of

That's true. I find many of your blogs to be literary porn even when you're not writing about boning.

Erin Blackwell's picture

literary porn = french lit

literary porn = french lit

Patrice Kamins's picture

Ha, yes! All of it from

Ha, yes! All of it from Anais Nin to Catherine M!

Erin Blackwell's picture

all the way back to chretien

all the way back to chretien de troyes, courtly love, 13th century. not to mention the marquis de sade.

i'm listening to your reading of my chart. you're a WHIRLWIND!

Patrice Kamins's picture

Yes, I realized how

Yes, I realized how modern-centric I was with that comment. I figured Marquis de Sade was a given . . .but yes, the esctasy of pain is part of the Christian tradition.

Erin Blackwell's picture

except when it's a turnoff

except when it's a turnoff

Rusty's picture

I don't see what you or

I don't see what you or Patrice Kamins see either, but that doesn't mean it's not there.

"When you look for the bad in mankind expecting to find it, you surely will." ~ Pollyanna

camomileroses's picture

have you seen patrice kamins'

have you seen patrice kamins' astrology blog this month? it nails blackwell's circumstances completely:
"GEMINI: career reversals or out-of-the-blue opportunities"
Kudos to Patrice.
I'm intrigued by my fate: "... a very different flavor of love-making". mmmm.

Erin Blackwell's picture

i highly recommend an indepth

i highly recommend an indepth reading by La Kamins. it's very high-tech. you get a cd-full of insight, yours to keep for years to come!

camomileroses's picture

for some reason, ms. mathieu

for some reason, ms. mathieu reminded me of the incomparable edith piaf but i don't know why...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgW2gAGwB_w

Erin Blackwell's picture

well, hmmm... they're both

well, hmmm... they're both frenchies & mm musta imbibed piafisms along with everyone else in the hexagon.

Erin Blackwell's picture

they're both NAPOLEANIC

they're both NAPOLEANIC that's what it is. short and commanding, utterly sure of their GRIP on their audiences.

i'm upping my numbers by replying to moi.

camomileroses's picture

trying to keep up with the

trying to keep up with the jones' or the palin's as the case may be? blah blah blah blah. just don't start shootin at stuff from a helicopter for attention.
btw, what's "hexagon" as used in the context above?

yonks's picture

Because france is shape as an

Because france is shape as an hexagon
http://www.sacrednumber.co.uk/storage/hexagone.jpg

-Do not follow me, I'M LOST-

camomileroses's picture

aha.

aha.

Erin Blackwell's picture

it's really a sexagon but

it's really a sexagon but that's considered too provocative

camomileroses's picture

too provocative for the

too provocative for the french? i'm very disappointed.

Erin Blackwell's picture

for others.

for others.

camomileroses's picture

what "others"?

what "others"?

Erin Blackwell's picture

those unsettled by

those unsettled by provocation

Erin Blackwell's picture

france, but only to the

france, but only to the french

yonks's picture

That remind me last year in

That remind me last year in Greece, there was a full lunar eclipse, i didn't know it was supposed to be, a kind of travel surprise. Now i can say that i have watch an eclipse in Greece. I would love to see one in China also Smile

-Do not follow me, I'M LOST-

Patrice Kamins's picture

Yes, eclipses have cycles in

Yes, eclipses have cycles in different areas of the world. The next one on July 22nd WILL be visible over China and Southeast Asia. Expedia anyone?

minniesota's picture

My cat is jealous of that

My cat is jealous of that lemur's tail. I'm jealous about the Silent Film Festival.

Oh, Ochi! After listening to that song, I need a shot of vodka.

Still searching for the right brainy quote.

Erin Blackwell's picture

saw an *amazing* douglas

saw an *amazing* douglas fairbanks movie last night and then drank way too much argentinian malbec at the post-party, which featured live tango band... tonight i hope to catch russian "queen of mars" movie... post-nap mayhap

Patrice Kamins's picture

One of my favorite movies of

One of my favorite movies of all time is a silent film that was remastered with a new London symphony score--Woman of Affairs with Greta Garbo, John Gilbert and Douglas Fairbanks, JR a queer if there ever was one!

Erin Blackwell's picture

is that where she does that

is that where she does that sexy thing with the communion chalice?

Patrice Kamins's picture

No, which one is that? She

No, which one is that? She does do the martyr very well in this one, dying in a charity hospital after miscarrying a bastard child . . .

Erin Blackwell's picture

nice. um at the altar, when

nice.

um at the altar, when she's offered the cup, she expressly turns it back a notch so her lips purposefully touch the place where her lover's lips drank the wine. it's super hot for catholics, such a NO-NO. forget the title.

Patrice Kamins's picture

Yeah, well Christianity and

Yeah, well Christianity and Catholicism in general perpetrated the practice of physical, emotional and psychological S & M. So yeah, that would be hott from that perspective. As per comment above, this is so cosmically out of style!

Erin Blackwell's picture

cosmically out of style? you

cosmically out of style? you lost me.

Patrice Kamins's picture

Pain and depression and

Pain and depression and victimization as well as violence and anger and suppression are really tired energetic constructs. We could say that they've always been a part of human history. But who's to say? That is the recorded or anecdotal history of humanity. If we are looking at a new world, perhaps it could include a release from this brainwashing and sliming that goes on everyday. We don't have to live with emotional or psychic pain if we retool our brains and perspectives.

This is just a seed idea that I need to meditate on further. But it involves a new paradigm of existence, pretty major, but one that is possible . . .

It's like we can continue to be trapped in a certain field of reality that includes all the stories we have ever learned OR go outside and up to the next level which has a different set of rules. That is what I am talking about, rather ineptly. A new field of energies that does not need to traffic in pain and depression, but rather potential and fierceness.

This is an unformed thought, and one that I hope we can revisit in upcoming verbal engagements!

Best,

Patrice

Erin Blackwell's picture

this reminds me of when i was

this reminds me of when i was in the lesbian separatist fold and many problems disappear with the absence of "men".

you also seem to be arguing for the age of aquarius but pisces yet clings, or enjoys the blowout of TORTURE TIME, which is not yet behind us.

i for one admit to a fondness for flagellation, self- or other-induced. i recently had a nice bout of psychological laceration, for my own good, of course.